“The man who enters by the gate is the shepherd of his sheep. The watchman opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.” (John 10:2-3)
There was a buzz about the house. The papers had arrived. The over stuffed envelope containing the papers rested on the kitchen table – I can’t remember how they arrived … maybe it was by special carrier… maybe it was by regular mail – I just can’t remember. All I remember was the buzz and that I really didn’t understand why all the buzz. Afterall, it looked just like any other white envelope that I had seen a hundred times before.
The mystery behind the buzz soon died down as my Mom arrived home from work. She opened the envelope. The papers made their first appearance. The papers – divorce papers from my Daddy.
Divorce papers that had me listed by the wrong name and with the wrong birthday! Unloved. . . Unwanted. . . Unnamed . . . Unknown. How could my Daddy not know my name? How could my Daddy not know my birthday? How could my Daddy not know me – his very own daughter?
Those were just a few of the questions and emotions that flooded my heart and head as I watched Momma correct the papers. Stuff the papers into a new envelope. Apply a new stamp. Cart them to the post office. And place them into the big blue box.
I wish I could tell you that when Momma corrected the papers, the hurt went away. But not so much. I wish I could tell you that the hurt went away after reading Psalm 139: 13-16 every day for a month; “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” (Psalm 139:13-16). But not so much.
It wasn’t until God revealed Himself to me as my Abba, my Daddy, and my Heavenly Father through His promise in Psalm 68:4-6, “Sing to God, sing praise to his name, extol him who rides on the clouds—his name is the Lord—and rejoice before him. A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. . God sets the lonely in families; he leads forth the prisoners with singing.
It wasn’t until I relinquished my heart to God’s promises – to God’s faithfulness – to God’s love – to God’s word – that I realized the truth of John 10: 2-3 “The man who enters by the gate is the shepherd of his sheep. The watchman opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.
Not only did God create my inmost being and knit me together, He knew my name before the foundations of the earth were created. He knew my name before I was a sparkle in the eyes of Momma and Daddy! He knew my name before my birth!
Not only does He know my name – He calls me by name! He is my Shepherd. I am one of His sheep! I am HIS! HE is mine! I am . . . Loved. . . Wanted. . . Named . . .Known!
Won’t you join me in letting go of your past hurts? Won’t you join me in letting go of the head knowledge so that it can become heart knowledge? Are you willing to replace those hurts with His promises – His love – His Word – His faithfulness?
Lord, I praise you and thank you for naming me – not only naming me but for calling me by name! I thank you for your faithfulness, for your love and for being a Father to this fatherless one. Thank you for being my Abba, my Daddy whose lap I can crawl up into and hug anytime I want. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
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